So I dont know if I am a whiner or not. I like to think not but who knows....
Lately though I have really quit whining.
I look at my "problems" and see people out there with HUGE life problems that have a right to whine. My migraine or sinus infection or whatever seems so trivial when I look at others lives and see that I am blessed and healthy and loved.
When you get stuck in a negative rut, you bring people down with you, so next time you want to whine, stop and try to remember that there are people out there in very bad situations, and they are probably not whining!
I know I say it all the time but in my life I have a lot of negative whiners, while I love them to pieces it irritates me beyond belief.
Suck it up and take your whines to God! He has the patience for you, I dont, and guess what....... if He doesnt fix what you are whining about He will change your heart. Either way your negativeness will stop! Life gets better!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
FML
Ok, so if you dont know what FML stands for, then google it.
I get so sick of people saying FML.
It is basically saying "There is nothing in my life for me to be thankful for"
When you are having a bad day, its ok to say "I am having a bad day" but "FML" really....? Your whole life hmmm?
Just try to be positive. Happieness is a choice. You also choose to be stressed and mad and irritated and everything else. You choose to be happy. You choose to over-react........ In everything you have a choice!
I get so sick of people saying FML.
It is basically saying "There is nothing in my life for me to be thankful for"
When you are having a bad day, its ok to say "I am having a bad day" but "FML" really....? Your whole life hmmm?
Just try to be positive. Happieness is a choice. You also choose to be stressed and mad and irritated and everything else. You choose to be happy. You choose to over-react........ In everything you have a choice!
Friday, January 14, 2011
This makes it all worth it.
I LOVE capturing people baptisms and giving them pictures of the special moment.
But
Situations like this move me to tears
But
Situations like this move me to tears
Alex.
Little sweet boy with brain cancer.
They let me know ahead of time that he had cancer, and this was an extra special kid.
His smile lit up the "room" and he had joy radiating from him.
He had Jesus radiating from him.
Reading all the comments about him on facebook gave me a little peak in to the great faith and love for Jesus that he had.
He inspired me to be better, do better and love better.
I always do the baptism pictures, and sneak off and head home. I like to get in and out because I dont like recognition of any kind. I am wierd like that i guess.
Well Alex's mom sent me a facebook note that touched my heart and made me happy to have the chance to do these baptism photos.
"I just want to tell you thank you so much for the photos you took of Alex,
You hold a special place in my heart, thank you for the prayers. "
Those kind of comments remind me that what I do is valued and even though I dont get a "thank you" from people, I know the pictures are treasured.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Matthew bought me a new car :-)
So my old car broke down, we bought it for $2,000 and it turns out it needed $1,000 worth of work on it.
I thought we were getting it fixed.
Well Mr. Sneaky decided that he was going to go down and get me a new car, went and test drive it and everything, then we went down and i thought i was getting my old car back and the guy walks me in front of this brand new car and says its mine. I didnt believe him at first then cried then was in shock, Matthew drove by with a huge smile on his face. He totally got me.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Got what I needed.
Ok, so I figure with Trevor and his school, that no news is good news. But with report cards coming out next week I wanted to be sure Trevor is doing good and see if there is anything I need to wkr on with him more at home.
Well we got a GREAT email back from Mr. Hall. I had to read it 10 times because it makes me so happy to hear how well he is doing!
Here is what he said:
Trevor is doing very well in class. As of today, he has an overall yearly average of a 99. For the 1st Nine Weeks' he made a 100 in both Language Arts and Math. In terms of weekly grades, he has a yearly average of 100 in Math and a 96 in Language Arts. His average came down a little because he made a 90 on Week 14 Assessment (Identifying objects that began with initial short /a/ vowel sound such as apple) and an 80 on Week 15 Assessment (Identifying objects that began with the initial /n/ sound such as nail).
Next week we are taking our 2nd Nine Weeks' Assessments. Trevor did wonderful on his weekly assessment so I think that he is pretty well- prepared for this exam.
Trevor is doing really well in my class. I really do not have any concerns about Trevor's success on this assessment
Trevor is doing really well in class. I very proud of Trevor's reading ability. Many thanks for helping Trevor at home.
Those were just snippets of what he said, but I couldnt be more proud of my little man! I love that we still "homeschool" while he is in public school too. He goes to school and we have extra workbooks and fun elarning games and things for him at home. So the learning doesnt stop when he gets out of school.
Well we got a GREAT email back from Mr. Hall. I had to read it 10 times because it makes me so happy to hear how well he is doing!
Here is what he said:
Trevor is doing very well in class. As of today, he has an overall yearly average of a 99. For the 1st Nine Weeks' he made a 100 in both Language Arts and Math. In terms of weekly grades, he has a yearly average of 100 in Math and a 96 in Language Arts. His average came down a little because he made a 90 on Week 14 Assessment (Identifying objects that began with initial short /a/ vowel sound such as apple) and an 80 on Week 15 Assessment (Identifying objects that began with the initial /n/ sound such as nail).
Next week we are taking our 2nd Nine Weeks' Assessments. Trevor did wonderful on his weekly assessment so I think that he is pretty well- prepared for this exam.
Trevor is doing really well in my class. I really do not have any concerns about Trevor's success on this assessment
Trevor is doing really well in class. I very proud of Trevor's reading ability. Many thanks for helping Trevor at home.
Those were just snippets of what he said, but I couldnt be more proud of my little man! I love that we still "homeschool" while he is in public school too. He goes to school and we have extra workbooks and fun elarning games and things for him at home. So the learning doesnt stop when he gets out of school.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Kids are amazing
Ok, so last night, I was going to the garage for something and there was a bang and something dark ran out. It freaked me out a bit, so I was going to wait for Matthew to go get what I needed.
Trevor came up to me, he said "Mommy you cant be scared, God is in your heart and with God in your heart, you dont need to be scared."
Soooo I went in the garage alone :-)
Wise words of a 5 year old!
Then Hannah asked "If God is in my heart, is he making it beep, like is he in there pushing a button?"
Trevor also said he wished that he could go up to heaven without dying, and come back home so that he can go to heave and see grandpa because he misses him. Also asked why we have to die to be able to go to heaven. Whew. He was FULL of questions last night. I pray I answered them all well.
He also requested his first bible. You know, a real one, not just a picture story book.
Trevor came up to me, he said "Mommy you cant be scared, God is in your heart and with God in your heart, you dont need to be scared."
Soooo I went in the garage alone :-)
Wise words of a 5 year old!
Then Hannah asked "If God is in my heart, is he making it beep, like is he in there pushing a button?"
Trevor also said he wished that he could go up to heaven without dying, and come back home so that he can go to heave and see grandpa because he misses him. Also asked why we have to die to be able to go to heaven. Whew. He was FULL of questions last night. I pray I answered them all well.
He also requested his first bible. You know, a real one, not just a picture story book.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Oh How People Change.
I sat here the last few hours reflecting back on my life.
After going to a funeral of a young man, i really got to thinking about life. Got me thinking about depression, and drugs and parties and suicide.
I remember when I was a stupid teenager. I was doing drugs, parties, stealing, lying, and on and on. BUT I was also going to church, and singing in the choir and having good christian friends and going to youth group. I was living a double life at 15. Before that I was just bad. It all started at like age 12. Crazy I know.
Anyways. I was addicted. To many things. I got in a DEEP depression. No one saw it though, and if they saw it, they did not care. No one cared. I never told anyone before but I even wrote a suicide note........ I saw no point to living. I dont think I would have done it, but life was hopeless and pointless.
I was stuck in this crowded room and felt alone. I know people say that all the time but it was so true for me then. I had no real friends, and really thought no one cared.
Life sucked.
Then, I have typed this before but it is honestly the turning point in my life, my boss at KLTV reached out to me. I was dragging in everyday, I was moody and mean and sad and grumpy. Everyone steered clear of me or poked fun at me. John reached out to me. I dont think he will ever know how much it genuinely means to me even now that he did that. I dont know where i would be if he hadnt. He simply said that it seems i am depressed and having a hard time and that his door is open if i ever needed to talk. And the look in his eyes was genuine and very sincere. I knew he cared. Someone in the world cared!! about me! He kept tabs on me, checked on my grades and school work, talked with me, maybe even prayed for me. I still get teary thinking about that day. Never will I forget it.
My whole point is, that if you are depressed and struggling, and you even have a thought of suicide..... even if you think you would never do it......TALK TO SOMEONE!!! Please please please. I didnt and I thank God daily that someone reached out to me. It doesnt always happen that way.
AND to you people..... if you have someone in your life that is showing signs of depression, reach out to them..... even if someone is NOT showing signs of depression, reach out to people, let everyone around you know that you care about them. Love people. Smile at people. Be there if someone needs to talk or needs a friend.
Sometimes people will end their life, and it kicks the feet out of everyone that loved them. No one will have seen it coming...... No matter how much you loved and reached out. Then you just have to seek God. He can and will heal your heart. The empty hole will always be there but the pain will fade. God is always faithful and always gracious.
Seek God in everything. I thank God daily for my life and where I am now and I REALLY want to use where I have been to help others. Pray for me, that I can find out where I am supposed to be doing that...... I have no clue but I know beyond a shodaw of a doubt that I am supposed to be helping people.
After going to a funeral of a young man, i really got to thinking about life. Got me thinking about depression, and drugs and parties and suicide.
I remember when I was a stupid teenager. I was doing drugs, parties, stealing, lying, and on and on. BUT I was also going to church, and singing in the choir and having good christian friends and going to youth group. I was living a double life at 15. Before that I was just bad. It all started at like age 12. Crazy I know.
Anyways. I was addicted. To many things. I got in a DEEP depression. No one saw it though, and if they saw it, they did not care. No one cared. I never told anyone before but I even wrote a suicide note........ I saw no point to living. I dont think I would have done it, but life was hopeless and pointless.
I was stuck in this crowded room and felt alone. I know people say that all the time but it was so true for me then. I had no real friends, and really thought no one cared.
Life sucked.
Then, I have typed this before but it is honestly the turning point in my life, my boss at KLTV reached out to me. I was dragging in everyday, I was moody and mean and sad and grumpy. Everyone steered clear of me or poked fun at me. John reached out to me. I dont think he will ever know how much it genuinely means to me even now that he did that. I dont know where i would be if he hadnt. He simply said that it seems i am depressed and having a hard time and that his door is open if i ever needed to talk. And the look in his eyes was genuine and very sincere. I knew he cared. Someone in the world cared!! about me! He kept tabs on me, checked on my grades and school work, talked with me, maybe even prayed for me. I still get teary thinking about that day. Never will I forget it.
My whole point is, that if you are depressed and struggling, and you even have a thought of suicide..... even if you think you would never do it......TALK TO SOMEONE!!! Please please please. I didnt and I thank God daily that someone reached out to me. It doesnt always happen that way.
AND to you people..... if you have someone in your life that is showing signs of depression, reach out to them..... even if someone is NOT showing signs of depression, reach out to people, let everyone around you know that you care about them. Love people. Smile at people. Be there if someone needs to talk or needs a friend.
Sometimes people will end their life, and it kicks the feet out of everyone that loved them. No one will have seen it coming...... No matter how much you loved and reached out. Then you just have to seek God. He can and will heal your heart. The empty hole will always be there but the pain will fade. God is always faithful and always gracious.
Seek God in everything. I thank God daily for my life and where I am now and I REALLY want to use where I have been to help others. Pray for me, that I can find out where I am supposed to be doing that...... I have no clue but I know beyond a shodaw of a doubt that I am supposed to be helping people.
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